On the Couch with CA

It has been a while, well, all of about two weeks since I last wrote anything in this space.    So much has been happening in my life in the last few weeks (and all positive) I am happy to report.    The business of letting go has freed me from the shackles that have been keeping me back from moving forward.   As you might remember I made a conscious decision at the end of 2013 that I was not going to have a repeat of what came before and almost did a few days into the new year, but came to my senses very quickly.  I am so glad I stuck with my decision as tough as it was in the beginning, over  Time it became a little easier to let go.   Far too often, as I wrote recently on my FB wall, we spend too much energy on waiting and thinking about what could have, would have or should have been, when we should just be letting go and moving forward.  If something is meant to be, then it will be.  If not, then all that time you ...

Recently our local radio station had a discussion about Matric Balls (end of High School Dance) and it reminded me of my disastrous Matric Ball way back in 1984. It was not so much the function itself that was a problem, but everything else that had lead up to that moment, and the subsequent ending. For many months I knew what I wanted to wear and had designed my own dress which was going to be made by a friend's grandmother.  It was going to be a long black satin dress with a bit of white trim.  My partner was a mystery until basically the very last minute.  I just did not have the courage to ask the one person I would have loved to have gone with me.  Instead I asked a number of other guys and their subtle let-downs did a hell of lot for my confidence going forward.  From thereon out I just did not feel good enough and decided having a boyfriend was not what I needed. Anyway getting back to my dress and who was going to go with me....