I have decided that it is time to just face up to it, that there is just no two ways about who and what I am. It was the morning of Sunday the 22 June 2014 and I was all excited about heading out with my Keep On Moving partners, Zita and her mother Sandy to pick up some youngsters from Valhalla Park for our monthly hike, when I was faced with a flat tyre after loading the car with my bags. At first I thought, do I fix this myself or do I call a friend (male), to come and do the job, then I decided against that idea, and just unloaded the car and pulled out the jack and the spare tyre. It was not the first time having to change a tyre and it probably would not be the last, but today was not a good day to be doing this, as I was not feeling 100% while trying to recover from the flu. My energy levels were not up to the task at hand. Nonetheless with the last of the energy I had left in me I managed to cha...
So I made it pass the midnight hour in one piece. I welcomed the arrival of the New Year by myself on the couch and then slowly dozed off and awoke to a quiet world. I guess all the party-goers are still in dreamland. It has been a while since I blogged anything and I feel a bit at a loss for words even though there is so much I would like to say. 2013 has come and gone and although it was emotionally challenging, I somehow feel a lot stronger than the year before that. The challenge I now face is letting go and to concentrate on me, because the only person in this point in time who finds me important, is me. Sure I have friends who are looking out for my well-being but they are not the ones having to walk in my shoes (when they are not broken) everyday. They have their own lives to live. Every year we make a list of our new year’s resolutions and every year most of us still repeat the same things we were hoping to change or let go of. I hope ...
The following letter is dedicated to all the mothers and fathers who find themselves in my shoes. "Dear Daughter Contrary to what you believe, that I am controlling you, the reality is that I have no control over you. You have constantly blamed me for all your downfalls and reminders that you did not ask to be here. Well guess what? Neither did I ask to be here, but as a single parent I am trying to do the best I can with what I have in the circumstances I find myself. The world is full of blamers but we don't all hold who we think is responsible for our downfalls as hostages, hoping that we are going to get ahead in life. We pick ourselves up from out of the darkness we find ourselves in and try to make light of the situation as best we can. There is enough war in the world as proof of everyone blaming each other for something or the other, we do not need it in the home. Those days of you trying to blame me for dropping ...
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